Who is God? The one I know and have experienced through odd and strange sensations, acts of the world and more than coincidence. But to continually struggle to live by his image. Failed by choices and thoughts. Forgiven by grace, saved by mercy. Who is this being that is so loving, all knowing and allowing of free will.
Why is it that all of the worldly knowledge, practice and job(occupation) contradict the Godly view? Is it mental health issues or is it demonic? Why does worldly treatment effect these so called demons? How does one be a believer when his view and knowledge of God contradicts his day to day job and experiences? These are the things I struggle with daily. Wanting to be Godly everyday, living in the experience, feeling God and knowing his voice. But balance my knowledge of books and worldly experiences.
Hard to stay in chair one(the Godly chair), pray and commune with God every day. Not always seeing results knowing I should, getting frustrated at God but taking it out on the world. What of me must I change in order to walk from a holy place. Contending like a prized fighter who is not in any condition to do so.
So I can see the change that I have continued to make through the experience with the blog and reading things that have answered questions and edified my beliefs. It is crazy how God and intercede in your life and interject his plan throughout your life especially when you are not expecting these things. I believe it takes faith and a choice to proceed in your faith. So now is the time for me to start training to be that prized fighter. So those around me be prepared to be questioned, tested and experienced in the walk that I continue to travel.
Feel free to answer the questions, pose your own or share any experience that you have had whether it is your walk or thoughts you have had.
I believe that God gives each of us our own "cross" to bear, our own trials that made us who we are. All these are meant to bring us closer to Him.
ReplyDeleteSo it is not necessarily a balance with the world within yourself, but a line you must draw to maintain your own faith. You must be aware of how far you can be pushed into the world before you will lose yourself.
I believe mental illness is one of these crosses and must be born with ultimate self control. It creates the fiercest threat of faith and is the most difficult to overcome- the tendency to despair is overwhelming. I have often agreed with you that it is in fact the work of Satan, for what Father so loving would allow a child suffer so? Yet, even in the slightest of pitfalls, a Christian has faith that God has ordained the situation for His Almighty Providence.